It seems I've been stuck in this Mama funk for a little while - well, frankly since I decided to go back to school. My kids need attention yet I need to do schoolwork. With an added pregnancy on top of everything else, I'm driving myself into quite a funk, to say the least. Hubby's challenging schedule leaves a lot to be desired for a wife with two toddlers, a baby on the way, a condo to rent (which is coming up on busy season), a condo to sell, a website to run, a meetup to plan and 3 online classes to complete. Most days I feel horrible. I'm snappy with the kids because I can't get everything done. This morning, I turned the TV on and tried to slip into my office and get caught up on some schoolwork - the following happened: 1) Lacy was found in a corner in her room eating chocolate candy - chocolate candy that she snuck out of the pantry, I assume. 2) Lacy climbed up and got a pen off of the kitchen counter. Just as I was checking on them, she was about to write all over our brick around the fireplace. 3) Next, Lacy proceeded to get a container of prunes (yes, I said prunes) out of the pantry and was eating them right out of the container. If it hadn't been for Maddy, I wouldn't have known.
Everyday for the past week, Hubby and I have been dealing with Maddy's melt-downs. Y'all, I'm talking about a knock-down-drag-out-scream-at-the-top-of-her-lungs-rage meltdown. And frankly, I'm at my wits end! Why oh why can't we just have a peaceful day? Well, I'll tell you why. My kids are bored. And I'm stressed. And I'm ready to throw them into any preschool that will take them. Well not really - well, I'm kind of serious too, though.
Now, normally we do have playdates with friends. But for some reason or another, that just hasn't worked out for us in a while. And so here we sit, at the house. You see, mornings are best for me. I don't have morning sickness - it's more afternoon/evening sickness. So, if I want to be productive, I have to do it in the morning. And yes, I could get up earlier than the girls and get some stuff done, but I find that if I get up earlier than about 8, I'm naseous! I know -- how much sense does that make, right?
Now for the happy thoughts, 'cause this post has GOT to have some happy thoughts. I'm blessed - really blessed. I'm home with my girls, I'm finally pregnant with my 3rd child and I have family who love and support me. My Mom takes the girls as often as she can - oh, she's a angel, I tell ya! And I'm well aware that this funk is probably hormone related (as Hubby so nicely pointing out during MY meltdown). So, I'm not taking myself too seriously.
But, it's hard. And anyone who says that being a mother is easy is just plain crazy! Now, what's been going on in your world . . .